Wtf… can you understand what is in the image above?
Well, I can’t really understand what is it, and I am not in the discussion when they have this draft last week. But now, I have to modify the proposal base on the image.
Wtf…. How can I do it, I am not sure. The manager just explains briefly to me in the phone, and expecting me to modify the proposal. What a big joke huh. And I have asked him a few questions when he is explaining just now, but the way he answer my question is like “why can’t you understand my drawing? Don’t you see that there are 2 gates in the drawing?”… hahaha…. Damn… I am really blur now. But it’s ok… I will just do it… because you are my boss and I have to follow whatever you request.
And I am stuck now…. and whatever questions that I asked you in messenger, you just ignore it. Sigh… how can I finish the proposal by today? please teach me!!!... I hate it I hate it hate it. If the thing is urgent, why don’t you give us last week? If you give me last week, at least I won’t make any appointment with my friend for dinner today. so now, what can I do? Cancel my plan, and go home to do the shit that you are giving me? proceed with my plan, have dinner with my friend and go home to do the proposal until late? Wtf…
Angry angry angry!!!!!
I am going to take a sick leave tomorrow.
And I will turn off my handphone.
I will just enjoy myself tomorrow, watch TV, go shopping.
You can just finish the proposal by yourself.
Just present whatever shit that you have, I don’t care!

My fault..?

Oh… I am drunk… maybe not drunk, just felt dizzy after the wine.
Tomorrow is another working day. Work is really taking up my life right now. can’t really count the time that I have been spending in my work. This is crazy, suddenly I feel that I can’t control myself anymore, I am really a shopaholic.
I know that…. There is problem with my lifestyle now, but I just couldn’t adjust it to a normal one.
Perhaps I have to learn to become selfish, and learn to love myself more.
Why… the manager can turn off his handphone on his off day?
How… the manager can turn off his handphone on his off day?
Maybe… people will think that I am just exaggerating, but… me being me… I just couldn’t understand everything that is happening now. and I just couldn’t understand why do I still hold the responsibility to the things that I am doing now.
How can… I feel so heavy to take a day off, and even when I am on leave, I will make sure my handphone is turning on so that people can call me?
How can… I feel that it is my responsibility to answer the call on a Saturday when the operators are working?
Why don’t I just leave everything to others? Why don’t I just leave everyone else to feel what I am feeling now…
Sigh.
Maybe everything happen is because of me…. Everything is my fault I guess…
My fault….. yea. My fault.

Time flies, it is already November now, soon… it is 2010.
What have I achieve in 2009?
I can only say that I achieve quite a bit in my career, but I don’t think there is anything that I achieve in my personal life. What a pathetic me.
Was searching for one of my old email yesterday… and suddenly I saw a lot of old emails with all those similar name, and similar jokes… old emails, where… the manager is still my very close manager, and still working with us… the team who are still concentrate in only one project in tgm, the laughter, the jokes, etc etc etc… suddenly everything pop up in my mind, and everything is just like yesterday… well, those are the memories.. and I look at what is happening now… sigh.. the manager has become a big shit to us… there are so many projects to be taken care of.. P company colleagues become the typical P company people... they are no longer close to us, I guess there are never close to us, just that I was so innocent to think that they are part of our vens/lgcns family. Hahaha.. and now, it’s them.. who are giving us lotsa shit to deal with everyday. I hate this, I seriously hate this. But what to do… this is the situation that we have to deal with, and these are the situations that make us grow….
I am seriously boring with all these people, situations and incidents… but why don’t I still want to stay here? Haha… I don’t know la… maybe I still like my job here… or maybe I am just too lazy to make a change after being in the comfort zone for such a long time.
Huhuhu….
Colleague M was mentioning about my blog the other day… hope that those who don’t know that I have a blog will not really take an attention on what M said.. hehe.. well, maybe I can just lock all the post 
ok… lazy to type already… time to continue my work.
Bye…

this blog is dead... but i'm still alive :)
after a long hiatus, i decided to update my blog again.
so much to say but so little time. hmm... actually not, just that i am too lazy to blog. also, my writing skill is like shit, hence the dead blog i have here. hehe.
it's about 9am on a Tuesday morning. the 4th day of ramadhan. well, me and ramadhan, not related at all. but after all these years working with a fully muslim environment... hmm, maybe not fully, it's about 97% of my colleagues or the person that i am working with are muslims... after all these years, i have learn so much about this particular religion... i'm not a religious person though... not to say i like or i hate them, just that i think we have to respect everybody, respect their everything .. hehe.. and then, we can get respect from others.
so in this month, there will be no lunchii~~ with colleague, no ayam kampung, no nothing.. just bread bread and bread everyday. hehe... damn.. quite boring with bread actually, but what to do... this is the easiest way that i can settle my breakfast/lunch and perhaps my dinner... :)
colleague is sleeping beside me. guess he is quite tired and blur without a cup of coffee in the morning. my smart colleague has become a blur guy zombie'ing aroung the office these 2 days, guess he will be better next week. well... first few days of fasting month... another collague of mine is still fresh now, guess he will getting sleepy later, and start 'fishing' in front of his laptop.. haha...
i am doing a new project lately. wtf with busbar housing feeder ampere etc thingy. never expect that i have to learn all these though... but without understanding it, we wouldnt be able to make the UI for them.. haih..no choice again.
is not in a good mood these few days.. maybe since last week.. haih.. what la.. i am always not in a good mood .. sigh.. why am i like this... never change....manager is acting like shit again. sometimes really lazy to layan him.. but wtf.. he is the manager.. if dont layan him then how can we work... haih.. another no choice case... hahaha.. can choose actually, just see that whether i want to make the move or not ^_^
will be working in HQ tomorrow. one thing that i love about working in the HQ is that the working time is started at 9am... so i can have a longer sleeping time... but the feeling is not good when i am working in hq... i miss the factory environemtn here.. i miss the old and dirty office in shah alam.. hahaa... oh ya.. another good thing about working in hq is that i can discuss easily with the sales colleague... dont need to contact with messenger anymore.. but after all, i still prefer to stay in shah alam office ... maybe because of i am really familiar with the envionment and the people that i am seeing everyday here... well... i have to move on too, cannot stay in only one project all the time... really, it is pointless to stay with this P company now.
oh. so much of working stuff.... let's change topic.. there are many breakup cases around me lately. not sure what happen though.. i guess.. there are about 6 or 7 couples who are in breakup phase lately.... haih.. what la.... more competitor now.. confirm that i cannot fight with them liao..hahaha... and today is also miss S's 26th birthday.. happy birthday dear.... will have a dinner with you tonight proposed by your very good and still missing you ex... haih... and another miss S is getting married soon... congratulations dear..... and then hor... another miss S's new shop is opening soon..,. congratulations also dear... hahah..that's all about them.. next time baru talk about them la..

okla.... it is back to work time.. haih.. boring boring boring...

tata...

I’m sorry, Hafiz.
I felt really disappointed on the management decision, and I’m even more disappointed when I know that the manager is trying to point ‘his finger’ to me on this issue.
And he success... he make me felt bad, sorry, and can’t forgive myself now.
Whatever happen, is happened!
There is no point to cry over the spilt milk now.
Lesson learnt…. with the great disappointment… I don’t think I can trust them anymore, especially the manager.
What am I still waiting for?
Time to think about the future again.

Control... control..

Just cut my hair last Saturday…
Thinking ofgetting the short hair I had last year, but the short hair look just aren’t the same now. maybe it is the hair stylist problem, or maybe I am too old now.
Anyway, I think I look younger with my new hair, and someone in the office said that I am 8 years younger now. hehe… and another someone said that I just look like nobita’s girlfriend in doraemon. -_-""
It is funny that the other 4 korean in the project team cut their hair on last weekend too… never notice that they cut their hair until the customer asked “why all lg people cut their hair”?... hahaha… what a coincidence…
Well, life is still the same now… and it is just about working, working and working. Workload is getting lesser lately…. But the going home time is still late. The normal time that I arrived home is around 9pm… or sometimes maybe 10pm… and I am gaining some weight lately. Sigh…*sob sob*… due to the too long hour sitting in the office, my tummy is getting bigger and bigger nowadays… T_T
The skin on my arm is peeling off slowly now. thanks to the sunburn from phuket last month. Just get to see the phuket picture from facebook today, will be getting it when I meet the girls tomorrow.
Haih… I am trying hard not to rant about working stuff here… but I think if I don’t complain about working, I have nothing much to update. What a pathetic life I am having now… sigh…today is one of the I-hate-myself day, because I just couldn’t control myself and I am practically throwing tantrums in the office… what a shame on me… all blames go to pms… stupid pms… I really need to control myself in the office…
Hmm… why is your status stay “Idle” all the time? Do you still remember me? I hope you do… T_T

Fuck... you thought I’m very free is it? I delete data after I get approval from the project PM. It is not like I delete the data whenever I want… why now say like I just delete the data without getting approval from others, and delete without official email?
And PM, what the heck are you doing? I think you still remember that you give me the permission to delete the data, what the hell are you just keep quiet there when the other member said that I delete the data without getting any permission or official notice?
You thought I am so free and so happy to do all these tasks? I just get requirement from the customer loh… if I have the options, I prefer do nothing and just make stupid explanation to the customers when they complain, it is easier.
So you want to try, getting phone call from the worker at night or in your holiday? Do you know how frustrating it is when you are enjoying yourself, and when you are having some rest time, and suddenly there is a call, asking you to solve some problems, and then you have to spend 2 hours talking on the phone just to solve a simple problem or just to explain something to the customers?
Ya la… everything I did now is very easy and yet, I took a long time to do it.
Ya la… I’m just stupid like that…
So what?
Maybe you want to experience what I am doing now… and then, you will know… I am really that ‘stupid’ as what you think I am…